tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4626078663141874216.post904017794720960141..comments2023-04-02T07:49:38.446-07:00Comments on Team Travis: Going Through the MotionsNicolehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08750687997109727558noreply@blogger.comBlogger4125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4626078663141874216.post-60107794717637172912011-04-13T09:54:10.531-07:002011-04-13T09:54:10.531-07:00A friend of mine who had a 2 year old and a new ba...A friend of mine who had a 2 year old and a new baby (several months old) told me once that somebody has asked her if she loved them both equally. She said, well, yes, but she was more bonded to the other child and that if somebody made her choose, she would choose the older child because she had more invested there. Of course, within a few months, as her new child started developing her own little distinct personality that was different from her big sister's, this began to change. <br /><br />I am also reminded of the movie Sophie's Choice, in which a mother is forced to choose and chooses her older child over her baby. she had more of a relationship with the older child. He was more real.<br /><br />I am writing these things simply to say that i bet your bond with Addie will grow and grow as she gets older and is more distinctly "Addie" and isn't always reminding you of Travis in everything she does. Obviously your horrible pain will not go away, but I really bet that your bond to Addie will grow.<br /><br />I am so deeply deeply sorry for you that you lost your beautiful child and that you feel the effects of that in your relationship with your other beautiful child. It is not fair. I don't even know how you breathe. I cannot imagine. I wish you peace and healing, and I think of you and your family every day. It just isn't fair.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4626078663141874216.post-11428206692359831422011-04-11T11:09:23.218-07:002011-04-11T11:09:23.218-07:00I have been and will keep praying for u guys. I pr...I have been and will keep praying for u guys. I pray for u to find some relief so u can feel joy again. U still will never be the same but u can feel some relief. If u have not got any proffesional help.....please do...it can help. Also make a purpose for yourself and throw yourself into it. Something that will honor your son and help others. Love and prayers to your family.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4626078663141874216.post-1539787286799334112011-04-10T18:07:16.077-07:002011-04-10T18:07:16.077-07:00Oh Nicole- I'm sure you are doing the best you...Oh Nicole- I'm sure you are doing the best you can and I feel so bad that you feel guilty. I'm happy that you started that group of Facebook- I'm sure it's a great outlet. As always, I'm here for you if I can do anything. <br />Love you!!Jennyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03815949154302796501noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4626078663141874216.post-45025610038999517002011-04-10T13:59:31.593-07:002011-04-10T13:59:31.593-07:00Nicole, my heart is so heavy for you right now. I...Nicole, my heart is so heavy for you right now. I so wish I could so something, anything, to change the circumstances, to bring Travis back to you. This is so profoundly unfair. It's not fair that Travis isn't here and other heart babies are. It's not fair that Travis went through the hell he went through and still didn't make it. It's not fair that you have to battle through what you're feeling to be with your daughter. I mean, good Lord, isn't it enough that you're dealing with all of this grief - and then to throw in guilt??? Damn. Sorry - the unfairness of it is just pissing me off. I wish there was something I could do to help you get through this, to the other side, where the pain is lessened enough so that you can function. I just don't know how, other than to pray for you...and to be there. So, know, that I am here. I love you. And I'll be here as long as it takes for you to get to the living with the grief point. Heart Hugs...<br /><br />AmyAmy Bennetthttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06256967321013244018noreply@blogger.com